Monday, December 17, 2018

Hello Again.


I.... dont really know how i found this again.
Thats a lie. A creepy pasta slender verse ARG has a blog spot blog and i guess my google account was attached to this one since when i scrolled into the comments i was able to follow my own icon here.
Im still hate the general creepy pasta fanbase. im not even a huge fan of the one im following now it kinda sucks acting wise.
Im not sure why i dont cringe when looking back through this and i suppose its cause no one can see it. I think ill keep it that way.
Im 19 years old now. been through high school, got a job, quit that job, got another job, dealt with a slew of mental health issues, graduated highschool, started therapy, quit my job, got sent to the hospital but didnt have to stay, quit therapy and medication like an idiot, got a new job, and now im here.
i guess like post prior i should mention what ever thing that im hyperfixated on right now.
theres

  • Furry shit involving my characters and my friends 
  • Slender verse ARGs 
thats the only ones i can think of that i know ill hate in a year or two. Ive gotten into bone collecting and i work at hatcher garden woodland preserve. I dont wanna say that ill post here again. cause ill probably forget about this blog as soon as im done rummaging through this ARG. Figure i should mention its Tribe Twelve so that 24 year old me can cringe at that. I think this would be a nice place to write things. like an online journal thats not publicly broadcasted unless i want it to be. Maybe i can start a different blog.... Ill see. 

Sunday, September 1, 2013




http://distilleryimage5.ak.instagram.com/39cfdc50135e11e3a2af22000a9f14a5_7.jpg       me and Haley before getting into our cosplays for omegal.

i meant to post this 4-5 days ago...

hi there. i haven't  blogged in a long time and i will most likely be a long time until i blog again. so sorry for that. but i realize that i have a lot of new likes now.  for instance, i am now a pretty big fan of this web comic called homestuck. it is really cool. my favorite character so far is Gamzee. HoNk HoNk :o)
i am a brony. i know, i know... hate all you want. i don't care. and neater do the other bronies. i have 2 my little pony figurine collectables (Derpy, and Flutter shy), 3 miniature my little pony collectables, a my little pony build a bear (Rainbow dash), and a my little pony (Luna is best princess) shirt. i have also watched every episode of  my little pony. i like adventure time and have an adventure time shirt. but it serves as more of a pajama shirt or a "weekend at my house doing nothing at all" shirt any more. i have 3 my little pony pins and one adventure time pin. i have 3 adventure time rubber bracelet and 1 my little pony bracelet. i used to loooooove adventure time, and don't get me wrong, i still think it is a really cool show, but i am not crazy for it any more.
i love homestuck as i mentioned before. there is this jacket that i plain to get that says "let me tell you about homestuck". it is green and i really want it. i am gonna get it but i have to do some work around my house first. there is a shirt that i would like to buy as well and it is less money. (but i want the jacket more)
speaking of my house i live with just my mom now. my dad and Andrew moved out near the end of the school year last year. it was sad and it still is (as my parents are still split apart and i think they are planing on getting a divorce) and i do miss getting to see my dad, i think that we are all taking this a little bit better than i expected us to.
but on to happier topics...  i will probibly be blogging a little bit more now that i can get into my blog and all. i don't know how often however. i am now a high school student so i have some more homework than in the past. it was my 3rd day of high school today and i already had a vocabulary test and homework and i have to read over notes for since.
i need to go now (i have homework to finish) so bye now.
HoNk HoNk :o) 

talking to strangers

today  was the first time that i had ever gone on a video chat web sight and showed my face. well, i didn't really show my face. i was with my friend Haley. we where both dressed as home stuck characters. i was dresses as Dave Strider and she was dressed as Terezi. it was really fun talking to people we didn't know because we had the settings to where we would only talk to home stuck fans. we talked to these two girls for a while and the one girl calmed to be my (Dave Strider) and Karkats child. we talked to them for a long time and they where really fun to talk to. then we lost connection and we had to stop talking to them. we talked to a few other people and then we ran into this guy who said that he was going to kill me (Dave Strider) and Haley (Terezi). he also said that he killed my (Dave Strider) bro and Kanaya. i whisperer loudly to Haley (Terezi) that we needed to kill him. he said "you know David, i heard that. and i will kill you first". me (Dave Strider) and Haley (Terezi) started laughing. he told us not to be laughing because we where doomed (or something like that). than he said it was nice talking to us and he disconnected. we saw a lot more characters and then we saw some one dressed as jade. we started talking and then she said that she had to ask me (Dave Stride) something. she put on sunglasses and ask me if she was cool now. i said idk. and she said that she could not be cool like i (Dave Strider) was. i said that coolness was on the inside and she said that she would never be cool like me (Dave Strider) and that she needed me to stay cool for her. i said shore thing and we started laughing. than we started laughing and dancing and being wired. we talked about how mean Haley (Terezi) was but we where just kidding. it was really fun to talk to all of them. i hope to be able to talk to more people on omegal soon.

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

my birthday is tomorow

omg! its tomorrow! the day that i become a teenager. tomorrow is my 13th birthday. i have been waiting for this day for about 5-7 years. i have been planing my 13th birthday ever since i was 6. i am paining to go to Outback to eat dinner with my family. i am going to post what i get for my birthday tomorrow.  see you guys then. :)

Friday, June 1, 2012

hunger games pictures :-)







more soon!!!  Enjoy these!!!   :-)

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

lonely


sometimes i fell lonely in this world. there it is. the word "lonely". lonely- sad because one has no friends or company. I have been lonely lately. i have had some trouble with some friends at school. one person has been mad at me for a while. she has now gotten one of my friends to turn away form being my friend. that girl has gotten another girl, Skylar, who is in all of my classes, to be "mad" at me. the one who took Skylar from me is now trying to get me to have no friends. i don't have friends in most of my classes that i can sit with and talk to because of the strict seating chart in all of my classes. i fell lonely most of the time. it is hard for me to have friends and even harder for me to find them because of my ad/hd and other symptoms. i love it when i find a friend. but it is kind of hard when i find out the friend was never a real friend. it is VERY hard for me. it causes me to fell lonely. i still have a few good friends, though, i hardly git to see them. i do, however, have one TRUE friend that will never leave me. he is ALL of my classes. he never will betray me. he does not want me to fell lonely. and i have realized, as long as he is my best friend, i will NEVER fell lonely. that him is God. i can always be happy as long as i have god. he will never give me evil looks, or sling hurtful comments at me. whenever i fell lonely i just tell my self, no matter how many friends betray and turn away from being my friend, he will always be my friend. he is my light of joy in the darkness of sorrow. i just cling to my hope that i will make it to the light and have faith that god will lead me to him safely. he is my joy when i am lonely.

Sunday, February 5, 2012


the super bowl is on. patriot's and giant's are playing this year. i am pulling for new york giant's. i hope the bowl this year is as good as last year. hope you guys enjoy it.

valintines day is comeing up and our school will be having a dance. hope you guys all have a date. if you don't, that's OK, you don't have to have one. just be able to come. i might be comeing by myself. i hope you guys can all come. hope to see you there.

Friday, February 3, 2012

every week or so, i will start to post a chapter or so of a book i am wrighting on my blog. the story is called "Anna and Sue" it is verry intaresting i hope you enjoy it.





“wait up!” Anna called, but Sue was to far up the mountain to hear. “Sue? Sue? Where are you Sue?” there was a ruffling in the bush. “Sue, that’s not funny!” Anna said at the bush. All of a sudden a wolverine jumped out of the bush. “brahh” screamed Anna, as the stuffed toy landed on her chest. “ha ha ha” calked Sue. “that was not funny” said Anna shakily. “it was to me” declared Sue still laughing at Anna. “no it was not!” Anna screamed. “calm down you little baby.” laughed Sue. “I am NOT a baby. And you STOP calling me names and scaring me. It not nice.” yelled Anna. Who was truly getting tired of Sue picking on her. Anna and Sue had been friends for five years. They where now in 8th grade and where on a felid trip as partners. ”whatever” Sew cried back over her shoulder. “ are you coming or what, baby” Anna did not follow, but instead got up and went over to sit down on a rock. “ we don have time for resting. The rest center is just up the trail a little. Come on” Anna did not move from the rock. “I will not follow you. You are a big fat mean person.” Anna shouted to Sue. “now you really sound like a baby. Get up and get over hear now Ann!” yelled Sue with all her might. “no!” Anna yelled back. “now! Or I tell teacher.” Anna got up but did not walk up the trail to where Sue was. Instead she started to walk down the trail, back to where the empty busses where. Half way down she looked down at the friendship bracelet she made for her and Sue to where. She took hers and pulled her pocket knife out of her pocket, placed the blade up next to the bracelet and in one swift swipe, the bracelet fell to the ground. “stupid Sue!” Anna told herself angrily “or should I say Susan” she laughed. Then she kept on walking. When she got to the bus she leaned on a tree and waited for a group or two to come back.

Monday, January 30, 2012


god has just called me to ask my follower's this...

whats your story about his glory? what is something grate God has done in your life?

you can tell me. i will be free to listen. i will answer the question to. any time God does something grate in your life, come to this post and tell me about it.

Sunday, January 29, 2012



i have been felling a little bit better today. i have not had a fever at all today. oi might be at school. i wont have a fever if i tack it right now because right now i am felling the best i have felt all day. i am going to go to bed soon. i kind of hope i will git sick more often ( not really ). i have more thime to post. see being sick has its advantages. well i will see you guys at school tomorrow. and Grandma, i will see you when you git home from aunt nick's house.

Saturday, January 28, 2012

sick

it truly stinks to be sick. i am sick right now with a fever. i am "sick as a dog" ,as they say. i went home early on Friday. my grandmother, the one i call meme, came to pick me up. after i came home she took my temperature. it was 100.1. i stayed at her house until my mom got home. after she got home we took my temperature once more. 101.5. i felt HORRIBLE!!! throughout the night it crept up. only once it went down. that was right before i went to bed. i had taken some Advil. this morning i woke up still felling like a piece of poo but my temperature was normal. now though it has started to go back up. this morning is was 98.5, but now it is 99.7 and still growing. like i said before, i HATE being sick. it truly STINKS!!!

Sunday, January 8, 2012

my sunday jokes for you


what are prehistoric monsters called when they sleep?
dinosnores

whats a myth?
a female moth

What illness did everyone on the Enterprise catch?
Chicken spocks

Friday, January 6, 2012

playing a bigger game...


I love the game of football. I owe that to my dad. My dad is man of very few words. Growing up I never heard him say much. But, when he was watching football he had a voice. A loud one. I saw passion and heart in my father during football games. Thus, grew my love for football.

When I was around 5 or 6 years old, my dad would wake me up early on a crisp fall Saturday morning, dress me in an orange and white cheerleaders outfit, load me into the car that had been appropriately decorated with tiger paw magnets and orange and white flags that hung in the windows the night before. It would still be dark outside, we would grab a quick breakfast and travel Interstate 85 into Tiger Town. I always knew that we were getting close when I saw the huge tiger paws painted on the roads. I thought that was the coolest thing. Evidently, so did my grandparents, because, I also remember that they got in trouble one year for painting huge tiger paws down their neighborhood street. I guess its okay to have orange paws on the roads in tiger town, but not on a tree lined street in Lyman. Never-the-less, taking a trip to Clemson SC in the fall, climbing the stadium stairs that gives you a beautiful view of the mountains and Tilman Hall, chanting C-L-E-M-S-O-N with a fist roll and pause before the N, swimming in a sea of orange and white always gives me a sense of nostalgia.

So, Clemson had a great season this year, walking away with 10 wins, an ACC championship, and a trip to the Orange Bowl this past week. Which by the way was a major FAIL!!! What I liked best about Clemson football 2011/2012 was watching their head coach Dabo Swinney. What a young, vibrant, passionate coach, who is investing in his players and teaching them more than how to play football. I've noticed that Coach Swinney is playing a bigger game. He never lets an opportunity go by that he does not testify to the goodness of God. He shows that he is a man of Gods Word and voices it often. He believes in the game he's playing, and it runs deeper than pass plays and total yardage.

Now, here is the lesson I got from the brutal, devastating loss at the Orange Bowl. 70-33 was the final score, and it was NOT in Clemson's favor. They didn't just lose, they were stomped, embarrassingly. They were bowled over. hammered. kicked in the face. left for dead.

In a press conference after the game a question was asked of Coach Swinney. "Coach, what do you say to your players in the locker room after a game like that?" Coach Swinney's response was something like, you know it is what it is, it was devastating, such stuff like that. But, this is the statement that rung out to me. He said, "I told them that I love them." and I thought when I heard that, "you know that's a lot like God.

Sometimes, I play with ALL heart and passion. I grab the ball and I run with it. I listen and do exactly what I'm suppose to. I'm efficient and effective at making the score. I live with total victory. And, God tells me that He loves me.

But often, I get sacked back behind the line. I drop the ball. I turn things over to the wrong people. I run the wrong way. I fall far too short of the end zone. And I don't make the goal. Sometimes, I don't just fail, but I fail miserably. Just like Clemson in the Orange Bowl I get stomped embarrassingly. And, God tells me that He loves me. Do you know what is really interesting? It's during my worst failures that I hear His "I LOVE YOU" more clearly. more distinct. louder. It's what causes me to stand back up. get back in the game. play harder. stronger. better.

In the fall I will climb the steps of death valley again. I will gaze out over the mountains, and turn my head towards that hill, I will cheer loudly (just like my dad), and watch Dabo and his tigers play a bigger game than just football. I will remember that when someone asks God, "What do you tell her after a failure like that?" He will always say, "I tell her that I Love Her."

have you ever felt like you failed at something? Did you hear God say, "I Love You" If you did how did it change you?

Posted by: Kristin Spehar (the mom)




Thursday, January 5, 2012

Good Sayings

Hello, I'm Rachael and I will be guest posting for Madison today. I go to school with Madison and I call her "Wanda Macadamia Nut" and she calls me "The Little Birdy". Today, I am going to post my favorite sayings. They are serious, but they have two meanings if you think about it. I really like these sayings and I hope you do too. I love to write and I have a blog too, just like Madison. Here are my favorite sayings:



  1. Every Flower Must Grow Through Dirt. -Anonymous


  2. A good time to keep your mouth shut is when you are in deep water. -Sidney Goff


  3. Don't ever take a fence down until you know why it was put up. -Robert Frost


  4. It's Hard to Beat A Person who never gives up. -Babe Ruth


  5. Trust the Dreams, for in them is the hidden gate to eternity. -Unknown Author


  6. Your talent is God's gift to you. What you do with it if your gift back to God. -Unknown


  7. Dream as if you'll live forever. Live as if you will die today. -James Dean


  8. If you rest, you rust. -Helen Hayes


  9. Children need models rather than critics. -Unknown


  10. Life's Like a Boomerang, the more good you throw out, the more you will recieve in return. -Unknown author

Thank you for letting me post, and I hope you enjoyed these sayings as much as I do! Thank you for reading! -Rachael/The Little Birdy

Sunday, January 1, 2012

HAVE A HAPPY 2012 EVERYONE!!! ENJOY IT!!!

new year : new me


me in 2011 was good, but in 2012 i am going to be much better. i will post more, i will show more self control, and i will be more understanding of others. i hope the new me and the new year brings out the best in everyone. if you have a new years revaluation you can tell, i would love to hear about it. i hope this new year brings out a new you.

My Sunday Jokes For You


passenger: is this my train
conductor: no. it belongs to the railroad company
passenger: don't be funny. can i take this train to Boston?
conductor: no sir. it is much to heavy.


costumer: I'll take some stake. but make it lean.
butcher: witch way do you want it to lean. left or right.

Saturday, December 31, 2011

tic tac's


One of my favorite candy is tic tac's. i love those things. when i got then when i was little, i would always pretend that it was medicine that i had to tack in order to stay healthy. the other day, my mom took me and my little brother, Andrew, to target. while we where there, i got a mouse for my computer and mom got a vacuum cleaner. after we got to the checkout, me and Andrew both got to git to pick out our own piece or thing of candy. we both chose tic tac's. the orange kind is our favorite, so we both chose that. it was amazing how fast we could find and pick out the special candy. as soon as the cashier handed us back our beloved teats we opened them and shook out two each. as soon as we plopped the two delicious candy in our mouths, we umed and awed. to us, the candy was one of the best things in the world. i still have some of those beloved tic tac's. Andrew ran out the other day. eater way you chose to eat your candy, fast or slow. NOTHING beats tic tac's.